I began having issues with my weight when I was in high school. I remember having to buy a size 12 for the first time and thinking it was the end of the world! If only I could wear a 12 now! I gained a few more pounds during college, got married, had kids...and here I am 15 years later. What happened? Where did the time go? Where did I go?
If you were to ask me about myself I would say "I'm a wife and a mom". That is my identity. The three people living in my home are the reason I get out of bed every morning. That isn't a bad thing, but somewhere along the line I have forgotten to realize that there are 4 people in the family that need to be cared for. I am important, too. I deserve to spend some time on me.
My life has been good. I have been extremely blessed with a loving family my whole life. It hasn't been perfect, of course. I have had a lot of disappointment and heartbreak in my life, but far more to be thankful for. I don't have much to complain about, so it seems like I would have my life under control.
I have been on and off of diets my whole adult life. The most that I have ever lost on one is 30 pounds. When I go off of the diet I almost always gain back what I lost plus a few extra pounds. With every diet I have focussed only on losing weight. Recently I discovered that it was going to take a lot more than that. I will explain more about that in another post.
In the last few months I have learned so much about myself and about life that I can hardly keep it all straight :) That's why I decided to start this blog. It's for me, mostly, but if someone happens upon it I hope that they will find the motivation to go on the journey with me. I'm tearing down my walls of shame and want to be completely honest with myself and with the world.
